Farm Day Dreams

Sometimes I daydream about what my life would look like if I could pick out a different way of life and what that would be like. Today's day dream is about being a farmer. I know farm life is really hard, but it seems like a rewarding hard work. I think there is something so appealing about growing things in the dirt and taking care of animals. It would be so rewarding to be working hard and watching the fruit of your labor with each and every harvest. I bet you would sleep so good and be so healthy from all the hard work required of farming. I imagine farm life like the story of Charlottes Web. I would have adorable baby pigs, chickens, ducks, cows and horses. I would ride around on my tractor and watch my freckle faced children play in fields with their overalls covered in dirt and mud, and at the end of a hard day I would make a tasty pie with fresh picked apples.  Doesn't that sound like a dream! What do you day dream about?

Caught in the "In Between"

Well friends family, if you even read this blog you probably have noticed that it has been a while since I have posted anything on here. A few months in fact, my last post being about my yosemite trip.

The truth is that I'm kind of at a "in between" stage right now and there is not much to share. I used this phrase the other day and realized that there are actually so many "in between" stages in life. One memorable "in between" is that age between childhood and teenage years, it's a time of awkward moments of wanting to be older but still having fun like a kid.

Then there is the "in between" that is the most fun the time in between young adult age and adulthood meaning the time when you are still somewhat dependent on your family/parents but trying to work toward an independence.

Then there is the relational "in between" where you are done dating for fun and are looking for something serious so you are in an "in between" being a member of a family a son or daughter that comes home to parents to being a wife or mother.

Singleness "in between" I think is the hardest and loneliest, I remember when I was in that in between I would do huge 1,000 piece jigsaw puzzles on lonely nights just to pass the time, thankfully God had another plan for my life and Tim came into my life to save me from my life of jigsaw puzzles.

Right now I am in another "in between", I am in the "in between" being just a wife to being a wife and mother. Many friends and family have been patiently waiting for the day when Tim and I finally decide to start having children, and though I'm sorry to disappoint those hoping for good news we are still waiting to have kids, but I am getting much closer to wanting to be a mom. I feel ready now but I know I want to be a financially responsible mother, and I don't know that I'm there yet we still have some catching up to do on bills and I know God has a perfect timing for everything so I have to just trust Him for his timing for when Tim and I should be parents.

I feel confident in God's timing because through each of those in between times I have faced before (times when I felt like screaming out to God when will this stage be over God will it ever be over) God has always carried me through He gave me the faith when mine was weak. It's crazy to look back at those "in betweens" and realize wow God answered my prayer even better than I could have imagined, why was my faith so weak, (i'm human I guess).

I know someday I WILL be a mother, and life will be busy, tiring and wonderful filled with cuddles, hugs, kisses, snotty noses, poopy diapers, bedtime stories, and all the other joys of parenthood. But for right now I'm going to be in the present and enjoy the in between I'm in now.

And if I can share any words of wisdom with anyone who is caught in the "in between" just go ahead and enjoy your "in between" as hard or as challenging as it may be life is too short to be in a hurry to get to the next stage. Enjoy the ride you're in!