It's one of those days I am taking a 10 minute break from researching to post this! I find that when working on a thesis the best method is 50/10; 50 minutes of pure work and then 10 minutes of a break. Sometimes your best work comes when you give your mind a little break. So for this break I am daydreaming of the day when graduate school is completely a memory of the past. It is so weird how fast graduate school flies by, last year at this time I still felt like a new student who is completely clueless, now I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel. I completed one of the biggest requirements for graduation last Sunday the Qualifying Oral presentation which was a huge presentation on the graduate level work that I have been doing at my Internship (practicum as we call it). Having that done has lifted a large weight off my shoulders, I am almost 2/3 of the way through the thesis writing process and I can actually taste graduation it's beautiful and I can hardly wait. Whenever I am faced with the question of whether or not I will go for my doctorate I find myself laughing hysterically at the person asking, a doctorate can you imagine that you mean after I dig myself out of the mountain of debt I have accrued and after I can finally breath and put all this stress behind me, you're asking if I want to go back for more. More stress of completing homework while working for free while stressing about my future, even the future of having money for gas tomorrow, hahahahahahaha you make me laugh!!!! But seriously to be honest if this was a perfect world and I didn't have those stresses I sometimes entertain the idea of after doing everything I want in the near future such as getting a job that I love (with benefits), traveling with Tim, paying off an enormous debt, raising a family, and maybe if I'm so blessed buying a house. After I climb all of those mountains maybe MAYBE MAYBE!!!!!!!!!!!!! (thats a huge maybe, by the way) I might go back for a doctorate in dun dun dun duh CHILD DEVELOPMENT well I am still passionate about this field of study and who knows I have big dreams (ask me what they are someday i'll share them and you'll look at me and think this girl is crazy). Yes but even with all that day dreaming I am reminded of the stress I am sitting in now with this thesis weighing on my shoulders and all I can do to get me through the days is envision myself on the beach sitting in the warm sunshine reading some useless pointless book or even better some terrible magazine with nothing absolutely nothing on my mind but the beautiful day!!! OH HOW I CANNOT WAIT!
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